Sunday, November 30, 2008
Margo's Bible Verses November 29th
Margo didn't underline any of the verses in the passage in Acts. However, she underlined the following verses in the passage in I Peter, the apostle Peter speaking:
"18:For Christ died for sins once for all, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body but made alive by the Spirit,...20:who disobeyed long ago when God waited patiently in the days of Noah while the ark was being built. In it only a few people, eight in all, were saved through water, 21:and this water symbolizes baptism that now saves you also—not the removal of dirt from the body but the pledge of a good conscience toward God. It saves you by the resurrection of Jesus Christ, 22:who has gone into heaven and is at God's right hand—with angels, authorities and powers in submission to him."
Here's what she underlined in the commentary on I Peter:
"If we suffer for wrongdoing we should humbly endure it as just punishment. When we suffer for doing what is right, then we are given the opportunity to suffer as Christ suffered. Since Jesus suffered injustice, his followers should expect to suffer injustice as well. It is a privilege to suffer for Christ, even though it is not at all a pleasant experience.(double underlined) Let us keep our conduct above criticism, so that when we do suffer, out suffering can be a testimony to those around us."
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Margo's Status Updates, 12/12/2007 -- 01/30/2008
we got back from denver today where margo had an mri.
the brain tumor has grown substantially and is out of
control.
our oncologist has discontinued chemo therapy and
believes margo may only have a few more weeks to live.
we have contacted the local hospice and they will be
coming out tomorrow morning.
our kids and grand kids are on their way home and
should be here tomorrow. margo may live through
Christmas but we'll probably celebrate early. my
sister becky will be joining us tomorrow as well.
we appreciate all your prayers and your friendship
over the last 14 months during the fight against this
disease. over the next few days we'll be trying to
sort things out and make our final arrangements.
we still believe God can heal margo and may do so at
any time. He's a great and gracious God. We believe
we've had almost an additional full year of the joy
of having margo with us. God willing, we'll have lots
more time together, but we're trying to prepare for
whatever may happen.
during these difficult times, i've seen some very
beautiful things and had the joy of experiencing many
loving friends and relatives and sharing our hopes and
our love for each other. difficult times bring out
the best and sometimes the worst in us. i'd like to
say i've always been the best, most loving husband,
but that isn't true. i've had some bad moments. i
pray God will forgive me for those and i pray He'll
continue to mold me into His image.
please come to see margo if you can over the next few
days and please continue to pray for healing and Gods
will in our lives. if you can't come visit, feel free
to call her on our home phone. she loves to talk to
friends and relatives.
i keep thinking of verses of this hymm..."When the
morning falls on the farthest hill,
I will sing His name, I will praise Him still.
Though dark trials come and my heart is filled
with the weight of doubt I will praise Him still."
God bless you all.
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Tuesday, January 1, 2008 9:25 AM
just a quick note...
margo is doing better than expected. she had a
"tired" day yesterday. it was hard for her to put
weight on her legs. she was feeling tired all day,
which is turning out to be normal now.
this morning she was able to help us (our youngest
daughter abigail and I) get her up and was able to put
weight on her legs and hang onto us when getting her
up out of bed.
she's resting now.
we get her up in the late morning to take her meds and
take a meal and then she normally wants to go back to
bed. most days it's difficult for her to stay up but
it's also difficult for her to go to sleep after
taking her meds, which include 16mg of steroid. we
usually sit by her side while she's in bed until she
goes back to sleep or decides to try to get up.
we get her up in the late afternoon to give her meds
and take a meal.
margo wants to be in bed early in the evening too, say
around 18:00.
Lord willing i'll be renting a van to take her out for
a drive this weekend. i'll be looking for wheelchair
ramps to get her in and out of the van.
i'll be going into work as much as i feel i can but
leaving early to help at home and spend as much time
with margo as possible.
the company and management i work for has continued to
support us through this difficult time. they've been
very gracious to me.
what i've described is a fairly good synopsis of our
daily routine.
God is so good. we are grateful for what ever time we
have together.
we appreciate all your prayers. we're still looking
for a miracle.
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Saturday, January 19, 2008 1:53 PM
thought i would send out a brief update on margo's
state...
she's doing much better than expected, but she's
getting worse. margo sleeps a lot and gets up usually
between 10:00 a.m. to 12:00 noon. she normally is up
for a couple hours and then goes to bed. some days
she stays in her recliner until later in the day when
she wants to go to bed. the recliner is motorized and
has a lift so it makes it easier and safer for us to
move her and to feed her. the recliner also has a
head support and margo needs a head support now. we
may be moving our adjustable bed upstairs soon. that
will allow us to get her up out of bed easier.
abigail is still with us, praise God for that. it
takes both of us to transfer margo now. i have hired
a company to come in the morning while i'm at work to
help abigail while i'm not at home. we're expecting
our oldest daughter ali to come possibly as early as
next week.
margo is starting to lose her appetite, but it's still
pretty good. it's getting more difficult for her to
swallow water and food. we started feeding more
"soft" foods while trying to maintain a diet with
fiber in it.
margo is still very alert when she's up but she's
having a harder time staying cognizant of where we are
in time and space.
we've had some good conversations lately, reminiscing,
and talking about all the times, good and bad, we've
had together. margo's memory is much better than
mine. i wonder where i was for all these years.
we've been through so many things over these last 37+
years. looking back, we see God's hand throughout our
lives.
we're still praying for a miracle. we need your
prayers to help us through this. please continue to
call margo. though she's not able to talk many times,
she still very much looks forward to the calls.
we appreciate your prayers.
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Tuesday, January 29, 2008 11:09 AM
a quick update...
margo is continuing to hang on, but her health is
declining daily. her appetite is diminishing and her
desire for water declines.
she is also sleeping more.
this morning she appears to have a fever. it's more
difficult for her to breathe too.
we continue to pray for a miracle and would encourage
all of you to do the same.
margo's mom was here for three days and left for home
today.
please continue to pray for us.
God's mercies are new every morning.
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Wednesday, January 30, 2008 2:40 PM
this will be my final update on margo...
she went to be with the Lord at 07:45 this morning.
my wonderful, sweet, caring, loving, intelligent,
creative, compassionate, strong, athletic, darling
wife of over 37 years.
my companion, my councilor, my guide, always my voice
of wisdom and common sense, is with the Lord with no
more pain, or sorrow, or sickness.
a devoted wife, and mother, forever caring and
concerned for her daughters and her brothers, sisters,
uncles, aunts, cousins, nieces, nephews, mother,
father, mother in law, father in law, friends, and
neighbors. always hospitable, laying her own needs
aside for her family and friends, and most of all for
me.
i know she's singing her lungs out and waiting,
patiently for me.
God, do i miss her already.
God bless you all for loving her so much too.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Margo's Bible Verses November 22nd
Margo didn't underline any of the verses in the passage in Acts. However, she underlined the following verses in the passage in I Peter, the apostle Peter speaking:
"14:As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. 15: But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; 16: for it is written: "Be holy, because I am holy."...
17:Since you call on a Father who judges each man's work impartially, live your lives as strangers here in reverent fear. 18:For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your forefathers, 19:but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect."
Friday, November 21, 2008
Margo's Bible Verses November 21st
Margo didn't underline any of the verses in the passage in Acts. However, she underlined the following verses in the passage in I Peter, the apostle Peter speaking:
"8:Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, 9:for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls.
10Concerning this salvation, the prophets, who spoke of the grace that was to come to you, searched intently and with the greatest care,... 13:Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed."
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Margo's Status Updates, 10/2006 -- 11/2007
Friday, October 20, 2006
Tonight she is supposed to start chemo therapy. She'll be taking a pill for starters.
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Thursday, October 26, 2006
Tonight she is supposed to start chemo therapy. She'll be taking a pill for starters.
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Friday, December 29, 2006
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Friday, January 5, 2007
The Lord is good, and we trust He will deliver Margo and our family from this scourge.
Please keep praying for Margo.
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Saturday, March 24, 2007
After the gamma knife treatment we were able to go to the Indian Wells tennis tournament near Palm Springs California. We were able to visit several of our friends and relatives while we were there. It was wonderful to see and visit with so many of our friends and family. We wanted to stay longer and were so sorry we couldn't see everyone.
Almost two weeks ago we were in Denver for another monthly treatment. Margo has been recovering from this last treatment and her blood counts have been good. She's still some what lethargic, and we're working on getting her up and around more. We're also continuing with the thalidomide oral chemo treatment. It's believed this drug is causing most of the lethargy.
Margo has had several visitors lately and she has very much enjoyed their company. Our friends Betty Adams and Niela Stover visited from California and stayed with us about 5 days. Their stay enabled me to go to Phoenix to work with my brother-in-law in hopes of starting a new business here in Colorado.
We are blessed to have so many good friends and relatives.
God is good!
Please keep praying for Margo.
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Wednesday, May 9, 2007
We are very much relieved by the results of the MRI. I was concerned about Margo's recent condition which has been deteriorating over the last few weeks. Until we could get an update from the oncologists in Denver I didn't want to concern others about it. I've been lowering her dose of steriod gradually (per the oncologists instructions) and it appears she's not ready for the lower doses yet. I conferred with the chemo oncologist and we've decided to go back to higher doses. We are also going to participate in a clinical study of a new drug that will replace the steriod we're using (decadron). The study will take a couple of weeks to complete and then three months after that before we can start administering it regularly. I'll be receiving the forms to start the study in a couple of days. This new drug apparently has none of the awful side effects of decadron. After we participate in the study, we'll be recieving the drug free of charge from the drug company. We are very hopeful about this new drug. Only one major drawback that we don't like, i.e., the drug has to be administered by injection.
The chemo oncologist, Dr. Arrenson, is also going to start Margo on another biological drug, in addition to thalidamide. It wasn't his first choice of biologicals but the insurance company wouldn't approve of his first choice because the drug has not been approved by the FDA and we would have to pay full price for it which would ruin us financially. His second choice is also not approved by the FDA but the drug company will provide it gratis.
As for the details of the MRI, there appears to be no new tumor growth and the existing disease appears to be "breaking up". The tumor that the gamma knife attacked appears to be shrinking. Praise God! We don't have the final results of the PFT but the prelim showed no problems.
Because of the side effects of the steriod, we'll be seeking a physical therapist for Margo. We've started her on an exercise regimen, but it's very difficult for her to get started on this...the steriod and the thalidamide inhibit ever her desire to exercise. We're hoping we'll find a PT locally that will accept our insurance and that the insurance will approve it.
Because Margo's blood counts were so low, she was not able to have chemo yesterday so she'll have to have blood tests over the next few days and once the counts are high enough, we'll be going back to Denver for another round of intravenous and oral chemo therapy.
God is good!
Please keep praying for Margo. We love her very much.
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Thursday, July 19, 2007
Wanted to get out an update on Margo's status after the MRI yesterday in Denver.
Overall, Dr. Arenson appeared to be satisfied with the progress of the treatment.
I'll be calling the doctor today to discuss her condition again.
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P.S. God is good and in control, even when it doesn't appear that way sometimes to casual observers.
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Wanted to update everyone on Margo's status...
We wanted to thank everyone for your prayers, and please keep praying for Margo.
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Margo is at swedish hospital in Denver. She started having seizures yesterday morning around 04:30 and we life flighted her to Swedish. She's currently in the critical care unit (icu).
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Her blood pressure has been too low to perform an mri but we're hopeful today she'll be able to get one.
The ct scan showed bleeding in the brain, but the surgeon believes it's not bad enough to warrant another craineotomy. Margo has been intubated
(respirator) because the nausea was causing vomiting.
Margo is coherent and mentally alert. She's being sedated and is on pain medicine, mostly because of the intubation.
Abigail is with me, and Ali will be here today.
I'll keep everyone posted as much as possible.
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Margo will be checking out of swedish hospital tomorrow morning and will be checking into a nursing facility for rehab. We're hoping she'll be there no
longer than 4 weeks, but can't be certain. By remaining in Denver she'll be closer to the oncologist and the cancer treatment clinic here at Swedish. We
think she'll be checking into a nursing facility in Aurora.
I'll be staying in denver and driving to work in Colorado Springs but i'll be able to continue the medication regimen i've been administering to her daily. I'll be driving back to the ranch a couple
times a week to pick up mail and make sure all is well at the ranch.
I'll be staying at st. vincent's house, where we staying when we were in denver a year ago. It's provided by the local catholic churches and it's only
about a mile from Swedish hospital. Abigail will be with us a few more days and then she'll be leaving for a tournament in Canada.
Margo is very weak, and her leg muscles in particular have atrophied so much it's takes two strong people to get her out of bed. We're hoping she'll recover
quickly and enough so we can take care of her at home very soon.
We're planning on continuing with the day care she's been receiving for the last 6 weeks or so, after she returns home.
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- Sat, 17 Nov 2007
We are back home now. Got home last night. Margo is very happy to be home again. Our friend Sandi is staying with us and will be here until Dec 10th
helping out and taking care of Margo.
Margo did not reover like we had hoped, but she's very happy to be home. When she first got to the nursing home she seemed to be making very good progress, but
over the last week to 10 days, she has regressed. We think part of the problem is she came down off the dexamethasone steroid too quickly without substituting
another steriod. She started experiencing severe headaches and lost quite a bit of function on her left side.
Now that we have her home, we can control the chemo drugs much more effectively. We've changed the steroid dosage and she's already feeling better.
We'll be starting in home physical therapy this week, Lord willing.
Margo is trying her best to recover from all this. We've had some hard times over the last few weeks, but the Lord has brought us through these valleys, and
sometimes it even seems he's just picked us up and carried us. Over the last month, we've been in the ER four different times, in two different hospitals.
margo has been in ER twice while she was at the nursing home.
Please continue to pray for her...healing, strength, encouragement, and please continue to call her. It's even more difficult for her to call out now, so
she depends on her friends and relatives calling her more than ever. Call her on our home phone. We left the cell phone at the nursing home in Denver and I
won't be able to get it until the weekend.
God bless you all for supporting us with prayers, cards, cd books, phone calls and visits. i especially want to thank those of you who came to visit her.
our pastor Cory Beery and his wife Shanda were there with us when margo came out of ER at Swedish hospital after the cerebral hemorrhage and she was on life
support. i can't tell you how much that helped me. i'll never for get that.
p.s. i was able to take margo out in the wheelchair on the deck this evening just after sunset. it was about 72 degrees and the mountains were beautiful. some of
you know what that's like. God bless you all.
Margo's Bible Verses November 20th
Margo didn't underline any of the verses in the passage in Acts. However, she underlined the entire passage in I Peter. When you read this passage, and as you think about what she was going through this time last year, and the year before, you'll know why she underlined it:
"1:Peter, an apostle of Jesus Christ,
To God's elect, strangers in the world, scattered throughout Pontus, Galatia, Cappadocia, Asia and Bithynia, 2:who have been chosen according to the foreknowledge of God the Father, through the sanctifying work of the Spirit, for obedience to Jesus Christ and sprinkling by his blood:
Grace and peace be yours in abundance.
3:Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4:and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade—kept in heaven for you, 5:who through faith are shielded by God's power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time. 6:In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. 7:These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed."
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Margo's Bible Verses November 14th and 15th
Margo didn't underline any verses in the first passage in Acts. Here are the verses she underlined in in the first passage in James:
7:Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. 8:Come near to God and he will come near to you..."
The second passage in Acts will require a little context. Luke is writing about Paul's third missionary journey where he was preaching in Ephesus, located in modern day Turkey, on the Aegean. Ephesus housed the temple of Artemis, the Greek goddess of fertility. The Artesian temple was one of the wonders of the ancient world. There was much commercial activity dependent upon the worship of Artemis.
These are the verses Margo underlined in the second passage in Acts:
Demetrius, a silver smith who made small silver shrines of the temple and sold them in Ephesus, speaking to a mob near the temple.."26:And you see and hear how this fellow Paul has convinced and led astray large numbers of people here in Ephesus and in practically the whole province of Asia. He says that man-made gods are no gods at all. 27:There is danger not only that our trade will lose its good name, but also that the temple of the great goddess Artemis will be discredited, and the goddess herself, who is worshiped throughout the province of Asia and the world, will be robbed of her divine majesty.
28:When they heard this, they were furious and began shouting: "Great is Artemis of the Ephesians!"
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Margo's Bible Verses, November 4th
Margo didn't underline in of the verses in Acts, but she did underline these verses in James:
"2:Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3: because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4:Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."